About me
As you have already found out as you entered this website, my name is Serah Sutherland and I am a transgender woman who is learning all about who she is. Learning about how to live as a woman. Learning how to embrace a new and happier life.
I am a fairly practical and an easy going person by nature. I am learning to embrace friendships more as I struggled with being close to people. I couldn't figure it out but now I have the knowledge that created that barrier. I am learning to break down all the walls I had created that confined me from living a full life.
I am looking forward to building my relationships with my family whom I have distanced myself from ever since puberty. I hope that they will accept a happier member of the family, even tho she isn't who they though they knew.
What was my past
I was born into a regular, middle class family, the 2nd of 3 boys. My parents were in their mid 20's when they started their family and us siblings were only 3 years 3 months across the 3 of us. Out of us 3, I was the most shy and I have now noticed patterns in my environments as I grew up that I feel helped influence where I am now. I struggled to fit into the environments I was placed. I always felt isolated, an outsider, and downright awkward. But all those experiences have made me into the woman I am.
I got married for all the wrong reasons in my mid 20's and made massive mistakes throughout that marriage. I hurt people who didn't deserve the pain I caused them. I do regret some things in my life, and that is definitely one area I do, though that life was never sustainable for me. I moved into competing in triathlons and even managed to race in a number of Age Group World Championship Events, plus completing 4 Ironman races. Now as I dissect my past, I achieved a lot, but I never addressed the real issues.
How I got here
It wasn't until my world went quiet, and after a relationship break up, I was able to reach out for help and get the help of a professional in mental health and gender issues, that I have able to learn, accept and embrace the woman who has been held captive and repressed inside a crude male form that is on display to the world.
If you read me blog updates, and read my blog in chronological order, my story will hopefully make sense to you.